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Dear CJ...

Dear CJ,

Hiya baby brother! Hope you're running around causing havoc in heaven. I'm sure your laughing until your belly hurts now that Joan and Robin are up there with you. I would give anything to be with you but until then I need to ask a favor... 

The holidays are coming and for any family with someone newly in heaven that can be rough. I need you to remind your family that our hearts will be heavy. Sure, it's been a year but no amount of time can take away the hurt we feel. We will always miss you and the holidays will never quite be right without you. Remind them to be gentle. Remind them to acknowledge you, hearing your name is SO much better than feeling like you are forgotten. We don't need another Christmas like last year. 

I start a new job next week, keep me motivated to work and go to school full time. Dreams only become a reality if you work towards them and the cards have finally fallen in the right way to start making that happen. When it seems like too much, push me to keep going. 

Help us to plan the party of the year for Tori and Skye in the spring. Your big sisters are people to be proud of and their accomplishments should be rewarded. Help us to not get too crazy but to also plan a party that will leave people talking. 

Push us to be anything but ordinary. Remind us to be ourselves, whatever that may be. We only get one chance to live and not only do we have to do it for ourselves but we've also made it our mission to do it for YOU! Be with us through the heart ache, the joy, the tears, the giggles and everything in between. Send us dragonflies and owls to let us know you are with us.

And last but certainly not the least important... put in a good word for us with the big man. We survived a year without you on earth. We've loved, we've hurt, we've gained friends and we've lost others. Ask for our prayers to be heard and answered. It's about time for something amazing to happen.

We miss you little man, but everyday lived is a day closer to you. I love you to heaven and back!
-Kk.

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